If anyone is actually keeping track of these blogs, you might have noticed that it has been a week since I posted anything. And let me tell you, it's been quite a week. I have been riding on an emotional roller coaster. Not fun. Stress, depression, anxiety, even some joy. It's been crazy.
I have been tired. Physically and mentally. My car officially stopped being functional. I almost rolled right out into traffic because there were absolutely no brakes. That was exciting. I ended up missing 2 important appointments because of this. The brakes have been shit for weeks now, and well, nothing was done about it, so it was completely expected for them to stop working altogether one day. But, still. It put a definite dent in my week.
I also had a ton of stress leading up to an appointment the kids and I had on Wednesday. Stress, anxiety, and everything else associated with those feelings. Haha. I was glad to have it done with, but the day itself was quite exhausting.
Along with great moments, like Joseph getting 1st place in his first track meet in the 400. He also ran the 200 for the first time, and did amazing. Ended up with a 2nd place finish. He is also part of the 4x1 team, and they came in 2nd as well, after falling behind in the beginning. It was a great day for Joseph and the MA track team.
I have been questioning a lot about my life this past week. My relationship. My parenting. My past decisions. My current living situation. Maybe it was just all the stress of different events that have been happening around here. Maybe it was my way of giving myself a wake up call. I don't know yet. I do know that I have been unbearable to be around. Heck, I can't even stand myself most days.
As far as my Insanity adventure goes, I haven't done anything since Tuesday. Sunday was the "rest" day. Monday was supposed to be the fit test. I ended up doing that on Tuesday instead, and had it all planned out how I was going to make up for the missed day. Well, I ended up not making anything up. Maybe I will start back up again Monday. I don't know yet. Maybe Insanity was too big of an adventure for me to take on. I did lose 10 pounds. I have still been watching what I eat and what not. Just, not doing the workouts.
So, this whole idea was a huge fail for me. It started out great and ended in a big flop. Hopefully I get out of this funk and back into the state of mind I need to be in.
Thanks for reading. Keep me in mind and check back for updates.
