The answer to that is no. No it is not. But it made for a nice rhyme! Today was Cardio Power and Resistance. Man, did I struggle. Everything just felt heavy today. My legs didn't want to move. My lungs didn't want to function properly. Just a crap day.
I made it as far as I did last time. Only this time, I actually needed more breaks in between to catch my breath. I get so worked up and nervous about having an asthma attack, that as soon as I feel a little tight, I have to stop.
Today was really just a shitty day. I slept most of the morning into the afternoon. Did the workout around 2:30ish, and just gave up. I didn't get on the Elipical or walk or anything else today.
You would think getting healthy for my kids, and getting to a place of being comfortable in my own skin would be enough motivation to really want to work hard at this. And, believe me, a HUGE part of me believes it is. But that's the same part that has always made these big plans and never stuck anything out. All it ever turns out to be is plans. I get tired, and frustrated, and don't see any results fast enough, and throw the towel in. I KNOW the amount of time and commitment it actually takes to reach any goals, but sometimes even thinking about that aspect of it exhausts me. Like, I just can't wrap my mind around doing this every single day. But, at the same time, I dream of having the energy and capability to run around outside all day with the kids, and not just watch from the porch.
I keep saying tomorrow is another day. But I need to starting thinking about TODAY! Today is the first day of the rest of my life. And I need to repeat that over and over every day I am alive.
I made it as far as I did last time. Only this time, I actually needed more breaks in between to catch my breath. I get so worked up and nervous about having an asthma attack, that as soon as I feel a little tight, I have to stop.
Today was really just a shitty day. I slept most of the morning into the afternoon. Did the workout around 2:30ish, and just gave up. I didn't get on the Elipical or walk or anything else today.
You would think getting healthy for my kids, and getting to a place of being comfortable in my own skin would be enough motivation to really want to work hard at this. And, believe me, a HUGE part of me believes it is. But that's the same part that has always made these big plans and never stuck anything out. All it ever turns out to be is plans. I get tired, and frustrated, and don't see any results fast enough, and throw the towel in. I KNOW the amount of time and commitment it actually takes to reach any goals, but sometimes even thinking about that aspect of it exhausts me. Like, I just can't wrap my mind around doing this every single day. But, at the same time, I dream of having the energy and capability to run around outside all day with the kids, and not just watch from the porch.
I keep saying tomorrow is another day. But I need to starting thinking about TODAY! Today is the first day of the rest of my life. And I need to repeat that over and over every day I am alive.
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