Day 13. Epic fail #3!!

Let me just start by saying today was complete bullshit. Pardon my french. 


This was the fist time Pure Cardio was combined with Cardio Abs. I watched the Cardio Abs video this morning to see what I was getting into.  Shaun T. and his clones make it look so friggin easy. *sigh*


First I did the Pure Cardio, which, I struggle with every time. Last time I did this one, I pushed myself to get through the entire routine.  So when I started it today, I already had high expectations. I think I struggled worse today then ever. My body just did not want to work with me. Everything just felt heavy. I did make it through the whole routine again, but I think I may have had more breaks, and it sure felt like I was moving in slow motion. I still got a good work out. My heart was pumping and I was sweating. It just didn't feel as good at the end this time. 


Then, I took a small 10 minute break before going into the Cardio Abs routine. The warm up to this routine is crazy enough!! And I already felt pretty spent from the other workout. I pushed though and did as much of the warm up as I could. Then you get into a "C position" where you sit on the floor, knees slightly bent, and back leaned back slightly, so you look like you make a "C". You stay in this position though a number of different moves. Let me tell you, I could barely hold the position, let alone do the moves. I have absolutely no ab muscles at all. I knew this going into this routine, but didn't realize just how horribly weak I was. I only managed to get a handful of each move done. 


After that, you get into high plank and low plank positions. I was able to do the high plank, kind of. If I wasn't already exhausted, I might have been able to push though better then I did. Now, low plank position, I am completely useless. I could barely hold the position, let alone lift my knee up to my side. *sigh* 


So, today was another fail for me. It's pretty discouraging. Even though I expected it, it's still disappointing. I have so much work to do. One side of me keeps saying to just quit. It's going to take way more then what I am capable of to see any results. I am too far gone, and should just except things for the way they are. Another very small side of me says I have to keep going. I will never get any healthier sitting around doing nothing. I keep thinking about my kids. I want to be a part of their future, and in order for that to happen,  I need to change my present.